My Life

Today is the day I got my hand at writing again. In the past before my boyfriend became my husband, and before the One up there gave us two beautiful girls, I penned my life on paper. It gave clarity and much space for introspection, and almost always get me to heave sighs of relief. Relieved by the fact that God never gives up on you. Relieved that there is still an empty page behind, hence knowing that it is not the end of the road just yet. Hence, Relieved, knowing that there is hope for a better day.
Now, I need to lay my life out more than before. Eversince we got married, we moved back to Jakarta. Yes, this is my birthplace alright, but I have never stayed in Jakarta longer than 2 months in one stretch. Besides, I have never studied the language, and never ventured out further than the malls. It is intimidating then when we decide to move, but I was with the person I love, so I took the big step. Everything changed, my friends, my house, my job, and the way I live my life.
It is difficult and often emotionally stressful as the people around you may not show empathy even when you need it most. It got to a point when every night you sleep on a wet pillow and the idea of running away seem so vivid and so likely. Despite all these, I still see the fruit of my labour. The love and support of my husband and the joyful light moments my daughters bring. Thank you Lord for my family. I will not want to change anything, If I did, I may not have them today.
A big part of my motivation in writing this blog is to give me the discipline to give thanks to the Lord for my life. The past 4 years eversince I came here, it is all about complaining...